Enmeshed in revolutionary politics and faced with imminent death, it took a series of extraordinary spiritual encounters to bring Grott to a dramatic change of life direction. She did not realize she had been on a life long quest for the answer to "Where was God during the Holocaust?" until she found her answers. In her search for meaning, and then healing and reconciliation, she gives us a rare opportunity to witness the extremes of behavior a seeker may turn to before finding a way to end the cycle of assault and retribution. This unusual story is told from an integrated, heartfelt, political and spiritual perspective.